today was the last day of school...a certain person wasnt there...and left me all alone. yea i had my friends with me...but it just wasnt the same. after finals...i will never see a lot of ppl from school again...this explains how i feel a lot better...


June 14, 2005

ill be leaving now
no one will miss me
im sure i was just a nuisance
and you couldnt wait to get rid of me

ill slowly pack my things
as i cry
they tell me to look at the bright side
and to spread my wings

but i dont want to be anywhere but here
where i truly belong
my will is breaking
but you know i never really was that strong

i need your help
i need you to hold me
but your not here
like you said you�d be all along

broken promises,
disappointments,
unfinished goals,
and things left unsaid
all i have to take with me
as i pack my bags
and look ahead

i have to face it
i cant ignore it anymore
i have to take all my courage
and walk out that door

my new life is waiting
though i never asked to restart
i dont want to leave
and its breaking my heart

just know that ill never be happy there
and ill miss you all
just know that your impact on my life
could never be described as �small�

this is my last and final goodbye
you can trust
i wont look back
so you'll never see the tears flowing from my eyes


it probably sucked...i know...i never post my poems...even though i write a lot...but this is a really big turning point in my life...

my math final is tomorrow morning...im gonna fail...i hate math b...i went swimming at a friends house today after school...it was really fun...one of my last...thats it for now...

bye...